The Journey

A little break from writing to share a video I had fun making.  Another way to express oneself.

Video clip to enjoy – click on “The Journey“.



I was staying at my sister’s apartment when our Mom called us with the bad news.  Dad had a heart attack and they were rushing him to the hospital.  Mom was on her way and we were to meet her there.

It was early morning and I was still in my pajamas.  I went into the bathroom to dress and get ready to go.  As I was dressing I felt my Dad floating above me and he was smiling and conveying loving thoughts.  I knew he had died but didn’t say anything to my sister.  The drive to the hospital was silent, both of us lost in our thoughts.

At the hospital we were led into a room where my Mom was waiting for us with my younger sister.  My Mom embraced us and choking with emotion said Dad was dead on arrival.

I think since I already knew this information, it was hard to hear but not devastating.  I knew his essence was free and happy released from the physical plane.

To this day I haven’t shared this with my family… untill now.

It is so comforting to know we are eternal beings only experiencing physical reality for a short period.



Inexplicably I was suddenly overly concerned about fire.  I became concerned that my house was going to catch on fire or fire would adversely affect someone close to me.  I checked and double checked heaters and appliances.  Several times I started off for work only to return home and check them once again.  It was literally a hand wringing feeling.

What was going on?  Fire would drift into my thoughts at odd times.  I was just starting to take a walk with a friend and when suddenly very clearly I heard “Fire” as if someone was whispering in my ear.- clearaudience.

At this time in my life I was getting deeper and deeper into the study of metaphysics and was working with a gifted Shaman.  I decided to bring this up at one of our sessions.

“I keep thinking about fire and double checking my heaters and appliances”.  I said.

After establishing that I had no fire trauma in my present or known past we proceeded.

“Go into the feeling”.  The Shaman said.

As she said this I shut my eyes and a scene started to develop in my mind’s eye.  The feeling was fearful and agitating.  I saw a huge pile of wood ready to be lit.  It was night-time and people were surrounding and milling around the massive pile of wood.  There was anticipating of if being lit.  I knew someone was going to be  burned at the stake.  Then abruptly I know who… it was to be my mother.  I was overcome with grief.  A man dressed in ragged burlap textured clothes forced me to look at him.  He had piercing blue eyes full of power and dominance.  It was my Dad, he wanted to make sure I knew that he was behind this terrible event.

My Mom in that lifetime was the village herbalist / healer and held a lot of sway with the villagers.  The problem was her husband, my Dad didn’t like this.  He was jealous, controlling and found a way to put an end to it.

The fire was lit and the flickering light, fear and village people’s gruesome anticipating popped me back into the present moment.  I couldn’t bear to see or feel anything more.

I looked up.  The Shaman was still observing I could tell.  Her eyes were shut but her eyeballs were moving behind her eyelids. After a bit she too came back.

We sat in silence for a while.  I now knew where my concern of fire had come from.  As I had been working on myself, a deep old fear surfaced ready to be released.

“Good work”.  The Shaman said.

After that session I was no longer troubled by thoughts of fire…

The Angels came…

With a gasp of breath I felt myself pulled upward and suddenly I was no longer in my body.  I was aware of myself as pure consciousness.  I had no awareness of my physical body.  I felt other swirling presences around me.  I ‘saw’ them as white swirling energy.

Before this I had been doing Reiki on a young woman and had started to cry.  My client became alarmed and asked “Are you ok”?

“Yes” I said knowing that I was just processing her energy.

Shortly afterword I left my body.  I became aware of my client sitting in a chair in the realm that my consciousness was.  Out of my heart chakra a little girl popped out and stood next to her.  As this was happening the ‘swirling’ energies were all around ‘us’.

My client was sitting in the chair with her head in her hands crying inconsolably, she didn’t notice the little girl next to her.  After a while she looked up and saw the little girl.  She was frozen for a moment, then she grabbed her and hugged her to chest.

I was enraptured by the swirling essences.  They were so peaceful.  They surrounded my client and the little girl.  After awhile my client took a magic wand and started waving it around.  As she did this stars began to emanate from the magic wand and they surrounded me.

Whomp, suddenly I was back in my body.

My client was pretty unique in that she was an astute student of metaphysics herself and she also did energy healing in her own unique way.

She said to me “Angels came into the room and you left to be with them.  I was afraid you weren’t coming back so I pulled you back”.  Hence the magic wand and stars.

She went on to tell me that she had given up a baby for adoption in the past and still had a lot of mixed emotions and feelings around this.  The session and served to bring out the emotion trapped in her.  She later told me that after the session she had felt so much peace that carried with her for days to come.

I know without any doubt that we are eternal beings and so much more than our physical body.  We are here for only a short time to learn lessons and then we go ‘home’ again.

Past Lives cont…

Past Lives cont...

After my first experience seeing a the young lady’s face morph into a man and back again I was excited to get the opportunity to try the exercise again.

This time I was paired with a middle-aged women with long hair.  Looking into her face it was like I was seeing a movie play before me.  Again it seemed to be a time period of 16th or 17 century.  In that lifetime this women lived on the outskirts of a small village.  I saw her walking toward her home after being in the village.  Small boys were taunting her and throwing things at her.  I got the sense that she lived alone.

Her home was like a study.  Books abounded and she lived for knowledge.  The only problem was she was a women and as a women she was excluded from the halls of learning.  To get around this she dressed as a man and traveled to conferences participating as a man.

It was so interesting to see.  What a perfect solution!  I suspect many women like her did the same…

Next blog – Have you ever wondered what it is like to not be tethered to your physical body? Well tune in to find out what this is like…

Past Lives and Reiki

Past Lives

About a year after I took the Reiki I course I signed up for a Reiki II course.  This was quite a big class with about 25 people participating.  When you have a lot of people doing Reiki the energy can be very strong.  The energy was so strong that sometimes it seemed to overpower me and I would just start weeping.  I wasn’t sad or feeling bad.  It was as if I was tapping into something vast and limitless and the result for me was weeping.

There was a young lady in the course who had recently been in a car accident and had injured her forehead.  She mentioned that she was always banging or injuring her forehead.  Like if she fell off her bike her forehead would be scraped.

One of the exercises in the class was to partner with someone and see if you could see one of their past lives.  You did this by sitting opposite from each other and looking into their face while soft focusing your eyes.  My partner for this exercise was the young gal who had been in the recent car accident.

As I looked at her face, it began to shift and change before me like I was seeing her face thru a fun house mirror.  Her face changed into a young man’s face with a big red birthmark on his forehead.  He appeared to live at a time long in the past like the 16th century.  It was clear that he was ostracised and condemned for this mark on his head.  I got the impression that other people thought it was the mark of the devil and he had a lot of anger about it.

This all happened in a minute or two but felt like seconds.  I shifted focus and the young girl’s pretty face came back.  It was clear to me that what I saw was the reason she kept injuring her head – lingering past life energy stemming from having the big, red, hated birthmark in a previous lifetime.

Interesting don’t you think?  Next blog – another past life.

Reiki started it all…


I recently taught a Reiki class and it got me thinking about how transforming Reiki can be.  For me it was a major milestone on my spiritual path and opened me up to some amazing experiences that I’d like to share over the next several blogs.

My first Reiki I class was held on Vashon Island a short ferry ride from my home in Seattle.  It was a nice rural setting filled with cows, horses and beautiful scenery. The house where the class was held was in a partial wooded and open pasture setting.

Before the course started, I was outside leaning on the houses’ deck looking down on some people sitting in a circle in front of me.  I immediately noticed and was drawn to a young man sitting in the circle playing a guitar.  It was a real strange feeling.  There was something about this guy that I couldn’t explain and I was hyper aware of him.  He was there with a lovely girl and they were a cute couple.

The class started and we learned about the origins of Reiki, hand positions and then broke for lunch.  All the while I kept sneaking glances at this guy.  Why was I so drawn to him?

After lunch the teacher told us to pair up with someone we didn’t know for an exercise.  I immediately walked over to this guy.  Maybe I would be able to figure out what was going on.  Our exercise was to look deeply into our partners eyes and write down the first word that comes into our mind.

Looking into this guy’s deep blue eyes I immediately got the word LOVE.  It wasn’t the feeling of romantic love but huge compassionate LOVE.  I was kind of afraid to write this down because ‘love’ is such a loaded word.  What would this guy think?

But it was so strong that I had to write it down.  We showed each other what we wrote and he had written LOVE too!  It was unnerving.  He said he had noticed me too.  Whatever the connection was it was really nice.  The best I can explain it would be like running into someone who matches your core essence. Someone you’ve known for eons as a spirit.  It was very peaceful, wonderful and deeply moving.

I haven’t run into anyone like that since…