Round about December 2012 it happened to me. Suddenly I was dropped from the jet steam of creative muse.
Left with just my ordinary dull mind the world seemed to have lost its luster. Things I never had time nor interest in filled the gap. I started listening to NPR, main stream media and TV. Shrill, shocking news and events since I last surfed the main stream wave. Yet somehow nothing had really changed. A whirlwind of smoke and mirrors revealing nothing of importance to me but it filled in time.
I blame it on hormones, stars, sun and moon. Lack of vitamin D, E and C.
I remembered a bit of wisdom I picked up from somewhere. Show gratitude and or wonder in the most ordinary of things. It started to work. I looked at the world with fresh eyes. Even cityscapes of concrete, metal and decay held some treasure.
Glistening rain drops sparkling on a car hood.
The soft fur on my cats ears.
Pink buds emerging on bushes and trees.
Cracks and crevices of broken concrete creating patterns like beautiful mandala’s.
City parks showing their wonder.
Ever so slowly sparks and wisps of smoke from the eternal creative consciousness started to enter my awareness.
I don’t feel entirely back but enough energy came thru to inspire a video I call “New City”.
As an artist trusting my intuition is paramount. Allowing ideas, pictures, words and impressions to freely come into my consciousness is what I strive for.
This is not always easy. When you are under stress or have many things on your mind it is impossible. For me it is important to set aside time to allow this process to come to fruition.
About 5 months ago I visited a Tibetan Buddhist Temple and took some pictures and video with a friend. I knew at some point I was going to make a video featuring the beautiful copper prayer wheels. I just didn’t think it would take this long.
Last weekend the ideas for this video started to flow. Dreamy, fluid and mysterious was the theme that came to me. I was able to create this video in about 2 days.
I recently had to put down one of my cats. It happened so fast, crisis, emergency vet hospital, no good solution but the humane letting go to prevent further suffering.
I was left with one cat the litter mate of Toby II who I had to put down. They were extremely close and Thea would yawl and look for her brother. I thought about getting another cat briefly – certainly not very seriously.
Then my Mom talked me into going to “just look” at cats at her local pet shelter. My Mom is a big cat lover. She had just been thru a painful procedure at an emergency clinic. I thought looking at cats and petting some would cheer her up.
At the shelter most of the cats were listless and dull in their cages. A few kittens had some spark. I got to the last cage on the bottom and there was a little guy half asleep in the back of the cage.
I looked in and said “Hello”. immediately he opened his eyes revealing deep orange orbs. He jumped up and started pawing my hand thru the cage and rubbing against the bars.
“Take me” he insisted.
It was unexpected and unnerving with my recent loss so near in my mind. We left but I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He was young and male a good match for my Thea.
The next day I called up the webpage of the shelter and found him. Again his distinct orange eyes made the picture. I showed my boss (another cat lover) and soon we were on the road headed to get him.
He came with some problems, big bite on back now a healing set of scabs, mites, bag of bones and soon to find out a fearless, wild child / devil personality. It is a understatement to say my household is adjusting.
He was a perfect candidate to try out my evolving video skills on…