Sadness

I have been skipping around on topics on this blog.  I sit at my computer and let what comes… be my topic.

This blog is back to Animal Communication.  Recently on one of my Animal Communication calls a most profound experience in many ways happened.

On that call our class got the sacred opportunity of talking to a large white dog with a different sort of message.

As I tuned into this majestic animal I’ll call Henry I got a sense of light and expansion.  It was as if he was larger than life.  If you met him in real life you would think he was bigger than he was.  I was feeling this expansion when all of a sudden it started to shrink and shrink and turned into the most profound, vast, aching sadness.

My heart chakra was deeply affected and tears came to my eyes.  Since the change was so sudden and unexpected I wasn’t sure what to do.  I just took it in.

I asked Henry what was wrong.  I didn’t get an answer but a burst of deeper sorrow came through.  It didn’t feel right to ask him anything more.  I just stayed with him.

The other students picked up on this sadness too.  It was the theme of the call. Henry was a rescue dog and the owner didn’t know what his history was that could have caused such sadness.

I have felt similar sadness with clients when I have done energy work but I have to say this was different.  Also to know that an animal, a beloved pet can hold such sorrow is truly heart breaking.

Animals do and feel so much more than we may ever know.  I’m in awe of these majestic beings living with us.

A special thanks to Henry’s owner for knowing and appreciating what a special dog she has but most of all a very special thanks to Henry for his willingness and trust to share his feelings with us.  I feel that I can say he touched all of us and took us all to a new level of understanding and insight.

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It was early morning and I was still in my pajamas.  I went into the bathroom to dress and get ready to go.  As I was dressing I felt my Dad floating above me and he was smiling and conveying loving thoughts.  I knew he had died but didn’t say anything to my sister.  The drive to the hospital was silent, both of us lost in our thoughts.

At the hospital we were led into a room where my Mom was waiting for us with my younger sister.  My Mom embraced us and choking with emotion said Dad was dead on arrival.

I think since I already knew this information, it was hard to hear but not devastating.  I knew his essence was free and happy released from the physical plane.

To this day I haven’t shared this with my family… untill now.

It is so comforting to know we are eternal beings only experiencing physical reality for a short period.

Fire!

What was going on?  Fire would drift into my thoughts at odd times.  I was just starting to take a walk with a friend and when suddenly very clearly I heard “Fire” as if someone was whispering in my ear.- clearaudience.

At this time in my life I was getting deeper and deeper into the study of metaphysics and was working with a gifted Shaman.  I decided to bring this up at one of our sessions.

“I keep thinking about fire and double checking my heaters and appliances”.  I said.

After establishing that I had no fire trauma in my present or known past we proceeded.

“Go into the feeling”.  The Shaman said.

As she said this I shut my eyes and a scene started to develop in my mind’s eye.  The feeling was fearful and agitating.  I saw a huge pile of wood ready to be lit.  It was night-time and people were surrounding and milling around the massive pile of wood.  There was anticipating of if being lit.  I knew someone was going to be  burned at the stake.  Then abruptly I know who… it was to be my mother.  I was overcome with grief.  A man dressed in ragged burlap textured clothes forced me to look at him.  He had piercing blue eyes full of power and dominance.  It was my Dad, he wanted to make sure I knew that he was behind this terrible event.

My Mom in that lifetime was the village herbalist / healer and held a lot of sway with the villagers.  The problem was her husband, my Dad didn’t like this.  He was jealous, controlling and found a way to put an end to it.

The fire was lit and the flickering light, fear and village people’s gruesome anticipating popped me back into the present moment.  I couldn’t bear to see or feel anything more.

I looked up.  The Shaman was still observing I could tell.  Her eyes were shut but her eyeballs were moving behind her eyelids. After a bit she too came back.

We sat in silence for a while.  I now knew where my concern of fire had come from.  As I had been working on myself, a deep old fear surfaced ready to be released.

“Good work”.  The Shaman said.

After that session I was no longer troubled by thoughts of fire…

With a gasp of breath I felt myself pulled upward and suddenly I was no longer in my body.  I was aware of myself as pure consciousness.  I had no awareness of my physical body.  I felt other swirling presences around me.  I ‘saw’ them as white swirling energy.

Before this I had been doing Reiki on a young woman and had started to cry.  My client became alarmed and asked “Are you ok”?

“Yes” I said knowing that I was just processing her energy.

Shortly afterword I left my body.  I became aware of my client sitting in a chair in the realm that my consciousness was.  Out of my heart chakra a little girl popped out and stood next to her.  As this was happening the ‘swirling’ energies were all around ‘us’.

My client was sitting in the chair with her head in her hands crying inconsolably, she didn’t notice the little girl next to her.  After a while she looked up and saw the little girl.  She was frozen for a moment, then she grabbed her and hugged her to chest.

I was enraptured by the swirling essences.  They were so peaceful.  They surrounded my client and the little girl.  After awhile my client took a magic wand and started waving it around.  As she did this stars began to emanate from the magic wand and they surrounded me.

Whomp, suddenly I was back in my body.

My client was pretty unique in that she was an astute student of metaphysics herself and she also did energy healing in her own unique way.

She said to me “Angels came into the room and you left to be with them.  I was afraid you weren’t coming back so I pulled you back”.  Hence the magic wand and stars.

She went on to tell me that she had given up a baby for adoption in the past and still had a lot of mixed emotions and feelings around this.  The session and served to bring out the emotion trapped in her.  She later told me that after the session she had felt so much peace that carried with her for days to come.

I know without any doubt that we are eternal beings and so much more than our physical body.  We are here for only a short time to learn lessons and then we go ‘home’ again.

Past Lives cont...

After my first experience seeing a the young lady’s face morph into a man and back again I was excited to get the opportunity to try the exercise again.

This time I was paired with a middle-aged women with long hair.  Looking into her face it was like I was seeing a movie play before me.  Again it seemed to be a time period of 16th or 17 century.  In that lifetime this women lived on the outskirts of a small village.  I saw her walking toward her home after being in the village.  Small boys were taunting her and throwing things at her.  I got the sense that she lived alone.

Her home was like a study.  Books abounded and she lived for knowledge.  The only problem was she was a women and as a women she was excluded from the halls of learning.  To get around this she dressed as a man and traveled to conferences participating as a man.

It was so interesting to see.  What a perfect solution!  I suspect many women like her did the same…

Next blog – Have you ever wondered what it is like to not be tethered to your physical body? Well tune in to find out what this is like…

Past Lives

About a year after I took the Reiki I course I signed up for a Reiki II course.  This was quite a big class with about 25 people participating.  When you have a lot of people doing Reiki the energy can be very strong.  The energy was so strong that sometimes it seemed to overpower me and I would just start weeping.  I wasn’t sad or feeling bad.  It was as if I was tapping into something vast and limitless and the result for me was weeping.

There was a young lady in the course who had recently been in a car accident and had injured her forehead.  She mentioned that she was always banging or injuring her forehead.  Like if she fell off her bike her forehead would be scraped.

One of the exercises in the class was to partner with someone and see if you could see one of their past lives.  You did this by sitting opposite from each other and looking into their face while soft focusing your eyes.  My partner for this exercise was the young gal who had been in the recent car accident.

As I looked at her face, it began to shift and change before me like I was seeing her face thru a fun house mirror.  Her face changed into a young man’s face with a big red birthmark on his forehead.  He appeared to live at a time long in the past like the 16th century.  It was clear that he was ostracised and condemned for this mark on his head.  I got the impression that other people thought it was the mark of the devil and he had a lot of anger about it.

This all happened in a minute or two but felt like seconds.  I shifted focus and the young girl’s pretty face came back.  It was clear to me that what I saw was the reason she kept injuring her head – lingering past life energy stemming from having the big, red, hated birthmark in a previous lifetime.

Interesting don’t you think?  Next blog – another past life.

opening

I recently taught a Reiki class and it got me thinking about how transforming Reiki can be.  For me it was a major milestone on my spiritual path and opened me up to some amazing experiences that I’d like to share over the next several blogs.

My first Reiki I class was held on Vashon Island a short ferry ride from my home in Seattle.  It was a nice rural setting filled with cows, horses and beautiful scenery. The house where the class was held was in a partial wooded and open pasture setting.

Before the course started, I was outside leaning on the houses’ deck looking down on some people sitting in a circle in front of me.  I immediately noticed and was drawn to a young man sitting in the circle playing a guitar.  It was a real strange feeling.  There was something about this guy that I couldn’t explain and I was hyper aware of him.  He was there with a lovely girl and they were a cute couple.

The class started and we learned about the origins of Reiki, hand positions and then broke for lunch.  All the while I kept sneaking glances at this guy.  Why was I so drawn to him?

After lunch the teacher told us to pair up with someone we didn’t know for an exercise.  I immediately walked over to this guy.  Maybe I would be able to figure out what was going on.  Our exercise was to look deeply into our partners eyes and write down the first word that comes into our mind.

Looking into this guy’s deep blue eyes I immediately got the word LOVE.  It wasn’t the feeling of romantic love but huge compassionate LOVE.  I was kind of afraid to write this down because ‘love’ is such a loaded word.  What would this guy think?

But it was so strong that I had to write it down.  We showed each other what we wrote and he had written LOVE too!  It was unnerving.  He said he had noticed me too.  Whatever the connection was it was really nice.  The best I can explain it would be like running into someone who matches your core essence. Someone you’ve known for eons as a spirit.  It was very peaceful, wonderful and deeply moving.

I haven’t run into anyone like that since…

Best Friend

You may think most people play the ‘parent’ role with their pet but that is just one of many roles played out when people and animals come together.

I recently communicated with a horse whose owner was her BEST FRIEND with emphasis.  They were most definitely equals.

When I first connected with the horse I got the owner’s name repeated over and over.  I got confused who was I doing the reading for the owner or the horse?  It was clear they were of one mind and that was the first thing I wrote down “one mind”.

Now that is quite a bond. I was shown a picture of the horse calmly and quietly eating hay in her stall.  When her owner arrived at the barn everything lit up.  It was like lights, camera action!

The owner who I will call Jen has a very vibrant outgoing personality and is a self-described chatty person.  The horse who I will call Eva absolutely loved how Jen could turn the barn instantly into “party time” by her mere presence.  Who wouldn’t want a best friend like that?

Eva’s favorite thing to do was jumping and she could lift her feet up really high.  Also Eva really wouldn’t mind a bit if Jen moved in with her.

Jen confirmed this was their relationship dynamics and Eva was at the end of the barn where the radio was. It was a very fun place to be indeed.
Eva loved jumping and Jen would sometimes sit in the stall with Eva lying down also with her head in Jen’s lap.

What a special world we live in.  Can you imagine a world without animals?  I can’t.

Sheriff

He said he was a Sheriff and he took his job seriously!  Who said this you ask? None other than a dog I’ll call Sam.  Sam was one of my recent Animal Communication Class homework assignments.

Every other week, I have a conference call as part of my Animal Communication Class. The call consists of the class instructor and my other Animal Communication classmates.  We catch up and then all talk to a new animal guest.  It’s fun and
very motivating to hear what other people pick up from these interesting animal
guests.  Some people pick up the same information and some get very different information.  I’m amazed at all the talented individuals in the program.

In the in-between weeks we all have a homework assignment where we are hooked up with a classmate to share a picture of an animal and to do a reading for each other. One of my homework assignments was to talk to Sam.

Sam lives in Montana on a 10 acre spread with lots to protect. Not only does he spend his time looking after the place (he showed me a picture of him surveying a pasture) he spends a lot of time behind horses, three to be exact.  The image I got for that was just the hind end of a horse and its tail.  There appeared to be two other horses as well.  Sam likes the outdoors and has a lot of upbeat energy to share.

Sam also plays the role of big brother / looking after another dog on the property.  Sam likes dog pepperoni sticks and his wet food.

Quite a conversationalist don’t you think?

According to his owner he does seem to be on constant patrol duty always making sure everything and everybody (including animals) are safe and sound.  And yes he does spend a great deal of time behind horses helping out and hanging out.

Dogs are natural protectors but I had never thought of them as playing the role of “Sheriff”.   I have to say it does make total sense but where do they get these ideas?  Did this come from from watching TV? Maybe I should have asked him what his favorite TV show is?  I don’t know about you but I’m thinking Bonanza reruns.

Next homework assignment I’m asking about TV / movie viewing habits! Inquiring minds want to know…